Forgive Me

I try to recall memories of you
So they don’t go to waste;
They flash through my head,
Fade away like a cloud of smoke,
Making me think of how
Things could’ve been,
Manufacturing images of
How you’d look if you were still here.

There’s a heavy pounding in my head
Making my heart skip beats,
In my heart,
A piece of you still lives,
A taste of fortitude, I hope you have,
And I won’t get to tell you that I love you
While I’m on this earth,
Will you be happy to see me again?


Forgive me now,
Forgive me for the times
I couldn’t be there for you.

Forgive me now,
So this won’t hurt me any more.


I made it through after five long years,
It’s one goal you set for me,
The disease that stole your life
Will no longer keep us apart,
I want to thank you for doing
The things you did,
To get us through.

You never gave up
After suffering for five long years,
Your strong courage,
Is one thing you left behind,
I think it’s one thing you gave me.


Forgive me now,
Forgive me for all those times
I couldn’t say, “I love you.”

Forgive me now,
Because you know,
I’d be there if I could.


While you fought for your life,
I was stuck growing up
Wanting to give up my own life,
But you wanted me to do my very best,
You expected me to make the right choices,
So I’ve done these things,
You must know this,
So I know that you live on in peace.


Forgive me now,
Forgive me for the things I never
Got to do for you.

Forgive me for this,
You know how much it means to me.


With warm tears in her eyes,
She said she loved you,
Grasping your cold hand
To say goodbye one last time.
I promised that I would move on
And keep the family strong.
Then your eyes opened,
For the very last time,
Looking up at us as if to say,
“I love you.”


Forgive me now,
Forgive me for having
To leave so soon.