Down, But Not Out

In my dreams I suffer,
Reliving things from the past
Because they were all so real
In them, I’m all alone

Wake up in a cold sweat
Realizing it’s all over
And my mind is just playing games
Refusing to let me forget who I am
So you want to know why I’m the way I am?

I’ve grown up suffering and watching
Its hard letting it go –
I can’t just forget my childhood
Every memory would be gone

I know it’s crazy, but it’s all
That’s left in my mind;
I don’t want you feeling sorry
Cause it makes no difference
But thanks for being so kind

A seratonal imbalance keeps me down
Only a few understand
Although I asked for help
I’ve told you why this is
I just try to withstand
Not pushing you away
Because I’m not at my best
Will you help me find a way?

I’ve grown up suffering and watching
Its hard letting it go –
I can’t just forget my childhood
Every memory would be gone

I know it’s crazy, but it’s all
That’s left in my mind;
I don’t want you feeling sorry
Cause it makes no difference
But thanks for being so kind

Sometimes I feel like I bring
Everyone else down;
Not finding a way out
I stood at the doorstep of suicide
But overcame knowing it’s
Not the right option
And I’m thankful I’m
Still in the right frame of mind

Remembering all I’ve overcome
And the pain I’ve hidden for so long,
I will continue on,
I will continue on.